For Your Entertainment: Part (whatever one we're on)

For Your Entertainment: Part 3 (Allyson showed me this and I died)

For Your Entertainment: Part 2

For Your Entertainment: Too Freaking Good

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Blogs. They're starting to become this big fad. All these typical really-pretty-i-do-my-hair-and-makeup-everyday-and-my-life-is-so-fun women have them.
I'm starting to hate that. I use my blog almost as an open journal. I write my thoughts and feelings as a relaxing tactic. It is therapeutic for me to get my thoughts out of my head so I can breathe and relax. So I am not going to advertise my blog. I'm not going to ask people to go and check out "this weeks newest post: the weekend was so fun!" I'll leave my URL available for those who happen upon it and arw interested but I'm not turning my blog into a fad. I'm not going to start spilling my day to day life. I am not posting loads of pictures from the weekend. I'll probably post pictures here and there. But my blog is going to stay real. I'm not going to post fluff.
That's actually why I post less now. I don't have as much to blog about and I want my posts to mean something.
My blog is a personal safety net. Where I go when I need someone to talk to. And it's going to stay that way.

It's been a hot minute

minute? minuet? I think I've been spelling minute wrong my whole life... so that's awesome!
Anyways. Hi.
It's been a while
I've been going through some stuff
Friend issues
School/homework/stress/teachers/stress
Work
Tanner and my other friends
Possible anxiety
Pretty much life has just been suffocating me.
But, I'm back! To help easy my ever growing stress,
I think I'm going to start writing it out again.
Which is probably better than screaming my head off when my stress level is through the roof.
Writing is therapeutic, the more I type out my frustration, to get them out of my head
The better I feel.
I want to feel better
Stress has over taken my life
I'm ready to be stress free.
I'm ready to come back
So fasten your seat belt everybody, because I'm back.

i hate titles. too much pressure.

Lately, I have been a confidant. People have been telling me loads of stuff about their personal lives. It really boosts my self esteem because I obviously must be a trust worthy person, right? It has been a little weird though... Usually, I am the talker and the teller and I've kind of changed rolls in a lot of my friendships. Not completely, I still talk a lot, but it has been nice to be on the other side. The listener. I like to be able to listen to people's stories and what they have going on in their lives and what they are struggling with. It's almost like an example to follow when I hit rough patches in my own life. I can remember how other people dealt with their problems and then more easily help myself. I like that I can be both a listener and a talker. I feel like it helps me to relate to people better and be a better friend.

“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.” 
“When people talk, listen completely. Most people never listen.” 

I don't want to be so busy with my own problems and life that I wouldn't have time to help someone out with their own problems. I'm always willing to be a "listening ear".

for your entertainment

"...My body told me to quit a couple of miles ago..."

I've never been any sort of  an athlete. I'm accident prone and have an extreme lack of motivation, but at the beginning of the summer I made a goal. My goal was to participate in an organized race. I sat down at the computer and looked for a race that looked do-able. I found  Cooper's Run and marked July 26th on my calendar. I had never ran 3 consecutive miles before so I was kinda nervous but I knew that I could start working on it and be fine. This was in early June and I really procrastinated my training. I ran a mile a couple of times during June, but not nearly enough to count as "training" for this race. Two weeks ago I really got serious. I had waited too long and I was getting so nervous that I started having dreams about falling during the race and dying or the race being cancelled all together. I really wanted to do well and be able to finish the race. I started running a mile about everyday to get my body used to running. On Friday night before the race I layed in my bed and all I could think of was that I had never run the full 3 miles before. I was so so nervous and I wanted to barf. It was that excited nervous, though. I knew that as soon as I was done I would be so happy with myself and my accomplishment, I knew that I would be able to do it. I was about to achieve my goal and by 10:00 the next morning it would all be over.
I got to the race a little early and my insides were going nuts. I could not keep still to save my life. I tried listening to music to relax myself a little bit but nothing seemed to really work. Finally the race began. The first mile was the hardest. I flew through mile 2 and 3. As I was running toward the Finish line/timer (and the fireman who soaked me with the fire hose-not fun) all I could think about was how I had just done what I never thought was even slightly possible. I finished at 46:30. My original goal time was 45:00. I'm not even slightly disappointed with my time, It just gives me a new goal- Run a 5k in under 46:30. I am so excited to start running more 5k's and hopefully work up to some longer, more challenging races!

^ Courtney and I at the finish line 

Running my little heart out^

Putting on a show

I am good at being me. It's really as simple as that.
I've kind of opened up to a few people and show who I really am.
I'm crazy, silly, funny, bossy, bratty, and a whole ton of sass.
A few people saw me being this way, and asked why I don't perform.
They said, "The stage was calling me"
The thing is, I'm not good at pretending to be someone else.
I'm good at being me.
I'm good at being responsible and a leader.
I do do (ha!) well in front of people, but that's because I don't care what people think.
Well that's not completely true, because everyone cares what people think.
I just care less.
If I have to pretend to be someone else for people to like me, I'm hanging with the wrong people.
God made me who I am for a reason.
It was be a waste of his power to pretend to be someone I'm not.
So from now on I'm just going to be me.

simple ways to spruce up your mood

(Another List- Judge me)

+ Wake up early. Waking up early gives you time to relax and ponder on your day ahead. It helps you become lest stressed and just makes you feel totally refreshed.

+Develop a routine. When you have things all in order you can feel more relaxed and ultimately happier! I feel a lot more secure when I have a plan and a reason behind it,

+Smile. When you smile even if you don't feel like smiling, your mood improves. It can give you a more positive outlook.

+Forgive others and yourself. Holding on to grudges and past injustice will do nothing but make you grumpier. Forgive yourself also. No one is perfect including you. Like Maya Angelou said, " Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better."

+Exercise daily. Get that blood flowing and the endorphin's up. I always feel better after I have ran my guts out and am sweating and stinky. Something about knowing your body is capable of doing hard things really works wonders for the mind.

+Laugh Everyday. Laugh until your sides are sore and your cheeks hurt. A good belly laugh can fix a bad mood in no time. Spend time with people you are always in fro a good laugh and that you can laugh with. People who can laugh are always the best kind of people.

+Be proactive. Finish things before they are due, and don't procrastinate. Anxiety and poor attitudes start to creep up into you when you procrastinate. When you are not constantly thinking of what you have left to do, you can sit back, relax, and breathe a sigh of relief,

decisions make me nauseous

I've gone through a billion things that I want to be when I grow up. I thought I had narrowed it down to one but, I really think there is four viable options for my future.
P.s. lists are my favorite. 

1. Obviously, In the future (after I marry a return missionary in the temple) I would like to be a Mom. That is my top most priority. Of course, In this day and age people do need an education in case the perfect "Man works woman stays home with the children" scenario doesn't quite play out. So I have three other options for a career.

2. I think it would be really cool to be a Dental Hygienist. I am interested in working in a medical related field but not the typical doctor/nurse/EMT. I feel like it would be a good career for myself and the pay is not to shabby (Jokes! It has nothing to do with the money. Even though that is a great perk).

3. I am a really organized, stick-to-a-schedule, make a to-do list everyday, kind of person. I'm really good at cleaning and turning a cluttered mess into a very neat and organized space. I would love to start my own  organizing business. I already have came up with a name for it and a design. It would work really nice because I could schedule it around my time and I could do what I'm really good at.

4. I've always been a "doodler". I used to get in trouble in elementary school because I would draw little pictures and designs on all my homework assignments. I am in no way an artist. It just clears my head to doodle a little when I'm listening to someone speak or if I am stressed. I especially like to doodle designs/logos/business titles. That's why graphic designer is the caboose on this list. I think it would be so fun to have a job that let's you doodle and make fun things out of other peoples ideas.

I really have no idea what to do. With college approaching I kinda sorta need to pick a career. I've been telling everyone that I'm going to be a Dental Hygienist. It seems like the most likely fit for my personality and future life. But, because I have "decided" i am almost doubting my choice.

What do i want to be? When do i have to decide?
Maybe I just won't decide and see how my life plays out? ( Ha! jokes!)

I will not

I will NOT be:

• a parent who screams at their children.
• a parent who screams at their children in front of their children's friends. 
• someone who is quick to anger
• impatient
• absent
• a wife/ mother who is not easy to talk to
• angry all the time
• unorganized
• a procrastinator
• a jerk to other people
• someone who makes fun of children
• a "bringer down"
• someone who is not open minded
• someone who can not listen
• a micro manager
• constantly agitated
• someone who is never happy in their own home with their kids
• out-of-control

Mariah's Declassisifed High-School Survival Guide ( get it?)

Mantras To Help You Survive High School.
High school is completely insane! Who in there right mind decided to put almost 1000 fifteen- eighteen year-olds into one school.(and that's just at OHS, other schools have way more) Hormones are seriously flying. No one gets any sleep... ever. Teachers are jerks and who even has time for homework?! ( The answer is no one.) Teachers are always saying " As teachers we know how you feel. you have SEVEN other classes that are feeding you homework so tonight's homework will only consist of: one essay on the chapter you read, a study-guide, a vocab sheet, and to read for your 1000 pages. I hope that you appreciate my effort on trying to lighten the (homework) load."
What The @$#% ! That is not even lighting anyone's load! What are these people even thinking?! Anyway now I'm off topic. I'd like to share my tips on how I am trying to survive the zoo they consider High School.

1. DO NOT PROCRASTINATE. Just don't. Life is worse if you procrastinate,Late points are deducted you dread the assignment more... it's just bad.
2. Get ORGANIZED. I find it a lot harder to think straight when my back pack is overflowing with junk and I can't even find what I'm looking for. Even though being and staying organized can be tedious, I feel that it helps me stay more calm
3. BUILD RELATIONSHIPS. Also known as- Kissing Butt. I'm not as bad of a kiss butt, although, I do try to make a good relationship with my teachers so that when I do have a problem, they are more willing to work with me. 
4. BE RESPECTFUL. No one is more annoying than a very entitled kid. You are not funny or Bad-A. You're stupid and we all hate your guts. You just end up making the teacher mad and that's just stupid. It really isn't hard to sit quite for an hour. Zone out, or even better actually do the work!
5. STUDY. As much as I hate to say it... studying works. Even if you just spend half an hour going over the material you will do so much better on the tests. Trust me. It is worth it
6. DO EVERY HOMEWORK ASSIGNMENT. Homework is usually the category that effects your grade the least, BUT if you do EVERY assignment it can give you a small buffer which can help raise your grade from that B- to an B or even A-. 
7. BE WELL ROUNDED. Don't forget that high school is about socializing and building relationships just as much as it is about learning. Take a break from studying/ homework to hangout with friends. Form study groups. Go to the activities. Go to the sports games and show your school spirit! High School only happens once so don't let it go to waste.
8. SLEEP IN. It is okay to sluff every once in a while. Sleep in a little, skip first. Sluff the assemblies. It is invigorating and is major stress relief
9. BUILD FRIENDSHIPS. Even though you  may not see half of these people ever again after graduation. Make friends. The friends situation is always tough in high school. People change and have bad days. You need other friends that you can rotate to when things are rough with your other friends. Having a wide variety of friends makes life so much more fun anyway!
10. ENJOY IT. As much as it may stink a lot of the time, high school is usually where people have their fondest memories. Don't spend your entire high school existence yearning for the future. The future comes entirely too quickly and then all you have left is regret.

High School really is great. As much as the teachers may absolutely suck half of the time. I wouldn't trade my high school experience for the world. I have become extremely nostalgic lately as my junior year is coming toward and end. I keep hoping that at some point time will slow down. Of course it won't and  senior year is right around the corner, begging for me to open the door and let it in. High School: The best/worst 4 years of your life.

to infinity (rambles) and beyond!

If you were ever wondering what goes on in my brain, you're in luck! Today and today only (April Fools!) You will be able to see what is bouncing around in my noggin'.

* sine-squared-of-theta-plus-cosine-squared-theta-equals-one......sine-tangent-theta.....math.... test... tomorrow?!! I'm really proud of myself. I've done every math assignment when it was assigned before the day before (haha tongue twister) the math test. I'm trying to memorize a butt-load of equations so I don't strand myself in sudden-math-stroke during the math test.  Math tests always freak me out. They are 80% of our grade and I really need to make it through math this year... Only 1 term left!

*I learned a really great ab workout from my fitness coach today. It's not too hard and you can definitely feel it. I'm in desperate need of a partner to go to the gym with (Planet Fitness) since the workout requires someone to toss the medicine ball to you. Plus, I'm way to freaked out at the thought off having to ask some random citizen at the gym to help me. NO to that.

*I really wish I had one of those cool blogs with 80 bazillion followers. Like c'mon... I'm hilarious! I try to make my blog a mix of funny, spiritual insights, random thoughts, and intense posts. Maybe the only person who is interested in what i think/have to say... is me?

*I really don't understand why people can't give people (me) the time and space I need to adjust. Last year was emotionally damaging for me. I went through a lot and I am in no way, shape, or form ready to relive those memories. I'm trying to go on with my life and put what happened behind me. I do not need you reminding me of those times because it just gives me anxiety. I'm trying to forget and move on. I can give you a thousand reasons why. It is easier for me to just forget it than it is to try to pretend the last year. Things are different. Everything is different. Don't pretend like it's not.

*When it's raining I like to lay in my bed, pretend I have no responsibilities and sleep, and just waste the day away.

*I need more lazy days. I am too busy for it to be healthy.

* I can not spell to save my life. If I was kidnapped and the only way to be released without harm, were to spell, I would be dead.

* I have become sort of a rebel lately. Well not really. I'm too cautious to do anything that is actually "bad" but I've done some slightly out of character things lately. Get on my level

 Okay. I'm done now. There is just something about typing your thoughts out that is therapeutic. Kinda like driving with the music off.  It also helps me to relax and make rational decisions. Yay for blogs!

It's beginning to look a lot like Summer?.. Winter? (Oh wait! That's what spring is in UT)

I'm one of those people who get irrationally optimistic when it starts getting warm in March. 
Actually, I am the epitome of irrational optimism. Since March began, I've been wearing shorts as much as I possibly can. I have the philosophy that if I pretend that it is summer it will become summer. Winter feels like it drags on forever and I am so excited for school to be out and for it to be summer.
Why wouldn't you get excited when it starts getting too warm for you too drive with the heater on? When it's warm enough that when you wear shorts you don't freeze to death?
Well apparently irrational optimism isn't always the best idea.... shorts and snow should never (ever) have to mix. I'm pretty sure I have frostbite on my legs.

Dear Utah,

If you could PLEASE pick a season that would be absolutely wonderful

Until then, You suck. 

Sincerely, Mariah

Summer please come quick. I will greet you with arms open in great anticipation. I am so ready for school to be over and for the warmth to touch every part of my soul. Heaven help me 'till then...

Vent-sesh

You know what I did during lunch today? Sat in my car and cried.
I'm so frustrated and I just can not put up with this anymore. 
The one person in the whole entire world who definitely deserves the best birthday ever (who also happens to be your best friend) is not going to even get it this year because your are being the epitome of selfish.
You got your guy. Cool. Now act like a human being and help me plan your best friends birthday.  She deserves it more than any one else I know.
And HE is not invited.

....And you are how old?

I am busy. I go to school. I have a job which I work at almost 20 hours each week. I'm in the Laurel class presidency, on the Stake Youth Council, and a YCL. I spend time with my friends and my boyfriend. I try and get the best grades I can and I sleep.
Most of the time I barely make it through each day. I have a lot of responsibility and I really do love it. Sometimes though, it feels like a burden. I usually feel like I should be perfect and be the best. I know that no one is perfect and that we all make mistakes. Not being able to fulfill a job makes me feel like dirt. I feel as though I should be able to handle everything on my plate and more. I constantly strive for perfection. Junior year has been especially challenging for me. I'm struggling to balance my social life, sleep, the rigor of my classes, work and relaxing. It is quite the act and I'm not doing so well. I really do not need any added stress or pressures in my life. I'm 17 and I shouldn't have to carry this much responsibility around like a ton of bricks.
A few weeks ago I was assigned to put together a musical number for the upcoming New Beginnings for the young women of my ward. I was sick in bed all week and I spent the next week frantically catching up in my classes. Last Tuesday, I tried to recruit a few young women to be in my musical number but none of them showed a real interest and I, knowing how stressful life can be, am never one to push. Sunday then rolled around and I still had not put together this musical number. The leader in charge of all this called a lady in my ward and bagged on me. She told her that she was going to call me out in young women's as a punishment for not fulfilling the assignment. That is not a way any adult should treat any teenager. Especially not one who is a leader and should be the biggest example. I do know people make mistakes and get frustrated but that was not the right way to handle the situation. As a 30- something year old, you should know how to handle things better. You are no longer in high school and you should act like it. How immature can you be?
The stress to be perfect is so prominent in my life that when I am given criticism or yelled at I break down. I'm so hard on myself and I just can't handle it.
You do not need to lie to my face about what happened and you definitely do not need to lie to the young women's president about it either. That is a very immature thing to do. I, as a 17 year old, know how to handle myself and act more mature.
You have really crushed my spirits and made me feel terrible. I feel like I'm no longer good enough and that I will not be trusted to carry out assignments. That breaks my heart.
I believe that everyone can be forgiven and that through the power of my Savior, I will be able to forgive her and myself for the things that have gone on.

A Tribute to a Legend

A tribute to the best show on the planet. I have become extremely sentimental because today I finished the greatest series. It taught me a lot about life (I know it is a t.v. show but it still is very moving) and I can't  believe it's all over. It has been a heart wrenching, moving, incredible time watching the 9 seasons of this show. Always remember, there is only one tree hill.

Drowning in the Tribulation

Lately, I've had a really hard time going to church. Don't get me wrong, I love our gospel. It brings me so much comfort and a knowledge that I am not alone and that there is a purpose for why we are here. It's just that I struggle in young womens'. I've always been one who is really good at being in charge. Leadership is really easy for me. I can get up in front of the whole ward if I have to and give a talk or make an announcement. With the change in our bishopric and young womens' presidency, has come a lot of pressure. Instead of doing things for the girls benefit, I feel like they are just trying to "check things off their to-do lists". Mutual is no longer a time to become better friends and do wholesome activities and learn about the gospel. They are about hounding us to get our personal progress done and making sure we are actively what I would call 'attacking" the less active members striving to be examples and befriending those who need it. Those things are both important, but these mid-week activities are for those who come and want to do something that will be fun or help them prepare for their lifes. It's especially hard when you are constantly being reprimanded because you are "always answering the questions" or are being "too controlling". It saddens me to see things like this happening. Satan is definitely trying his best to tear down our gospel is any way that he can. Lots of the girls in my ward that I have talked to feel this same way. Young Womens' is for the young women, not the leaders or anyone else.
If I hear one more thing like, " In the handbook..." I will explode. The handbook is a guideline. It is not a set of rules.
We need to come up with a way to make our activities and Sunday meetings enjoyable and renew the desire to be there.

My favorite boy♥

 This is my most favorite boy in the world. He has been an amazing influence in my life for the last 6 months! I love him to death and I don't know where I'd be without him! 

Help us to get home safely

A while ago, I heard someone say, "When a child says a prayer with the phrase '.. please bless us to get home safely' they are referring to our heavenly home."
Ever since I heard that I've said it in everyone of my prayers. It is an amazing insight that I think everyone should be aware of. I do hope that we all can make it home safely.

At last, the end has come.

The very first day of Sister Dimmick's seminary class, we read these letters all of her past students had written. They were all so sweet. Although, I didn't understand a lot of the inside jokes like I do now, they made me excited for the year to come.

As the last day of her class came to a close, I was anxiously anticipating the handing out of the papers so I could write my letter. I've been waiting since August to write this letter. I've been keeping notes and jotting down thoughts that I would put in my letter. The last 10 minuets roll around, we have a little testimony meeting and then she dismisses the class. I've never been more disappointed in my life. How could we not write the letters? I've been planning and waiting for almost 6 months!!

So I will write my letter here.

Sister Dimmick's class taught me more than just the Gospel. She taught me to love and to look outward. I've never felt so much love for our Savior or the Gospel radiate out of someone so much. She really loves what she does.

Sister Dimmick will most definitely change the world someday. She has already started, spending hours a day teaching and sharing the Gospel truths to High School punks like me. 

She taught me to Spit, and to spit often. Spitting has changed my life, for the better. It's so simple, yet without her class I would have never thought to do it. 

She also taught me that every hymn is my favorite. I mean, they're all so good! 

I learned to "look with my spiritual eyes". 

I learned that everyday scripture study will (and has) changed my life. I made a commitment to her and the lord to read everyday for the rest of my life starting January 7, 2014. I vow to never miss a day.

Sister Dimmick is a huge example to me. She is strong and independent. She has such a strong testimony and a desire to share it. When I grow up, I hope to be like her. She is amazing. 

She taught me about finding the homilies in the scriptures. She taught me that gratitude is an action. You have to actually show it. 

I know that I was put into her class for a reason, God knows our hearts desires. 

I will never forget the lessons I learned in Sister Dimmick's class. She is so wonderful. You are so blessed to have the divine opportunity to be in her class. 

~ Mariah Gaines 

The Pursuit of Happiness

I've never seen two cuter or happier people!
I figured this would make you smile, because I sure did.
*Be sure to watch the WHOLE video*

Ramble-y Sunday

Tonight, as a family, we each picked an article out of one of the Church magazines. (The Friend, New Era, and The Ensign)
I chose my article out of the Ensign. It is entitled: The Best Time to Plant a Tree by President Dieter F. Uchtdorf (Second Counselor in the First Presidency). (http://www.lds.org/ensign/2014/01/the-best-time-to-plant-a-tree?lang=eng)
This little Article President Uchtdorf wrote really reminded me what new years resolutions are really all about. It's not about making a huge long list of things you never plan to accomplish. It is supposed to help you rid yourself of old habits and take a step further into becoming the best you, you can be! Resolutions in this day and age are mostly worldly. If we take the time to make meaningful worthy resolutions we are so much closer to becoming Christ-like and living with our father in heaven again, and that is ultimately what I want in my life.
I'm very grateful for all the people who have been such great examples to me throughout my journey here on earth. Lots of babysitters, and older girls in the ward are especially ones that I look up to. It's sad to see that a few have fallen away from the church. I understand that they are exercising their agency, but it is still a sad thought.
As I have reflected on my life and seen all the women who have been examples to me. It makes me want to be a better example. A lot of these women probably don't even know I look up to them. How do I know who is watching me? Who wants to be like me? I wouldn't want someone, later in life, regret looking up to me. As I go throughout this new year I want to strive to be a better example.
In 1 Timothy 4:12 it says: "Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity." This is a scripture I want to strive my best to follow.
And this my dear friends, concludes my Sunday night thoughts.

"Life is short, smile while you still have teeth."

Just to start off, my dad thought it would be a wonderful idea to turn off the wifi at 10pm each night. Like what? Late at night is when I do my best blogging!! What in the world was he thinking?! But, I will not let not using my laptop be that big of a hiderence. So here it goes, from my phone.
Tonight at my second home (taco amigo) I had the best experience of the whole week. I was way ahead on my closing jobs so I was helping my coworker with hers. I was helping take money and hand food out the drive-up window.  A man pulled up to the window and I greeted him as I normally do all customers. I asked how he was and told him his total. He told me he was ornery and handed me his credit card. I then proceeded to apologize for his bad day and charge him for his food. I handed his food and card back out the window and told him to have a great day. He replied, "You have a great night, too! Oh, and keep smiling!"
It is amazing how big of a difference a smile can make. Just turning up the corners of your mouth. It isn't a hard thing to do, yet we as people tend to do less and less of it these days. A smile has such power. When you choose to smile even when you don't feel like it, you could be changing someones day or even their outlook on life! So smile big whenever you get the chance! You never know how many chances you have left!
I'm grateful that that man took a chance and spoke more than the usual few words most people do. So in the words of that very friendly man "keep smiling!" You never know when someone will need it.

Do you have 20 minuets?

Jillian Michaels is a mad woman!
Since school started, I've been going to the gym 3-4 times per week (with a few exceptions). I lift weights, I do cardio, I do abs, arms, and legs. I've definitely seen a difference and I feel a lot better inside, and a lot better about myself. I feel like I'm pretty in shape,  seeing that I run almost 2 (someimes more) miles each time I'm at the gym. Apparently,  I'm not.
I woke up yesterday with absolutely zero motivation to head to the gym. So, I grabbed my Jillian Michael's 20 minuet work out video and put it in. 20 minuets, how hard could it be?
Oh my! I've never sweated so much in all my time working out! All the moves are really easy. Stuff any normal person would be able to do. The way she combined excersizes (for full calorie burning/ muscle toning benefit) was insane! In the first 5 minuets I wanted to die!
It was a great workout and I'm so sore now in my legs and abs that it hurts to walk ( and I may or may not hobble around like a grandma). But believe me, I will never underestimate the power of Jillian Michaels ever again!