Wednesday, July 31, 2013


I saw a little boy today, he looked just like you did when you were a kid. The memories all flooded back. Tears filled my eyes and I blinked them away. I couldn't cry then, I was at work. That little boy didn't even know me so why would I cry? He'd think I was insane.
I heard once, you don't miss the person you miss the memories. That's not true. I miss you and I miss our friendship. I'd give anything if we could talk, just at least be friends again. It's so hard for me, I gave everything for you. Now we don't even talk. I put so much effort into that friendship for it to all fall apart. It kills me. I wonder of you ever think about me. Do you remember all the fun we had? Do cherish the memories? Do you wish we were still friends? I do. I wish with every being of my soul. I miss you.

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

I love this song:)

Sunday, July 28, 2013

"Can't we all just get along?"

I was driving at 5:30am one morning, back in November. Mr. Steele was always telling us these random inspirational stories about all these people and the lessons that need to be learned. This particular morning, he was telling us about Rodney King. A man who was in the middle of the riots and found himself attacked by police. He is famous for his saying, "Can't we all just get along?"
Why can't we? Everyone is going through something right now. How hard is it to forget about yourself for a bit amd help someone else out? It's really easy. Even the smallest things can change a persons day. A smile. A hug. A compliment.  A friend. A good laugh. Of course it's easier said than done. Sometimes we get so caught up in our own life we forget there are people out there who need us. Instead of one-uping eachothers problems, can't we just agree that everyone is struggling and try and be kind to everyone?
I'm grateful for that very early morning when Steele taught me this lesson. It's something I'll never forget.

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Accidents happen.

Of course. As soon as I get home from traffic school, I get yelled at for being ungrateful. Typical. Cause I'm a typical arrogant teenager. This makes everything that's going on right now in my life, so much more awesome.

All I do is think about that accident. If I could go back, I would. I'd prevent it. The first two nights after I didn't sleep. I still have nightmares and I wish it never happened. Do you ever consider how I feel? Nope.

I HATE that adults think all teenagers are stupid, stuck-up, and that they're opinons don't matter. I'm not a stupid teenager. I do have an opinion and I do have feelings. Adults aren't always right like they think they are. Us "ungrateful teenagers" know quite a bit. We're not as naive as we seem. Just because I don't go around preaching my gratitude, doesn't mean I am ungrateful. Maybe if you took a minuet to spend time with me you'd understand that.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Vent sesh.

I'm trying to get over myself. I'm tired of always feeling left out and like the third wheel. It's tough being the ugly friend when you used to be the pretty one. I know that sounds so shallow, but that's how I feel. I feel like a shallow brat who only cares about herself. I don't know how to feel anymore. I just want to curl up in a ball. Why does it matter so much if someone likes me or not? Why can't I just get over it? Why can't I just be okay with life and just go with the flow? Oh right, because I'm me. Being me really sucks right now. I wish I was someone else.

Thursday, July 25, 2013


I have turned into one of those cat obsessed people I always used to make fun of. I never really was a "cat person". Cats used to make me squirm and I always sneezed when I was around them so I thought I was allergic. Then, about a month ago, we got a cat. I love this little kitty so much! She is my favorite! Her name is technically September, but I call her Poppy or Stella or kitty (mostly kitty). Our poor cat is going to have an identity crisis, but oh well! I'm trying to teach her the meaning of the word cuddle... it's not going as well as I hoped but I'm sure she'll get the hang of of sooner or later... I hope. I hope she turns into one of those really fat cats that you keep around to cuddle with and make fun of. I also hope she mellows out, right now she is extremely crazy.  But until then, I'm going to love this little spawn of satan :)

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Train yourself!

《 If everyone did this; this world would be so much better ♥ 》

Monday, July 22, 2013

The road more or less traveled by

Life is quite the journey, indeed. You never know what will be thrown at you or what obstacles will be in your way. You learn and grow each day, by overcoming obstacles that our heavenly father selected just for us. Life, of course, isn't always easy (and no one said it would be) you have to take a step back, take a deep breath, take a few minuets to see the full picture, and then keep on trucking. Giving up is never an option. People are each given a different set of trials. Don't go around comparing your life and trials to someone else's. It's sometimes easy to compare your progress to anothers, but that's not fair to either of you. Everyone's life is unique to them. I came acrossed a quote not to long ago that said: "Don't hate the sinner; hate the sin". I really like it. It helps me to remember that everyone makes mistakes and everyone is different.  It is easy for us, me especially, to judge others from the mistakes we have made. No one has the right to judge another unless they are perfect themselves. Since no one will have the opportunity to be perfect while here on this earth, no one can judge. Love everyone and greet everyone with a smile! :) Remember, life is a journey. 

Monday, July 15, 2013

A *short* break from the world

I wrote this super inspirational post, but of course, just my luck it got erased.
I'm really excited for girls camp tomorrow, it's going to give me a bit to relax, relieve my self from the stresses of the world and to be more in tune with the spirit and devine revelation. I've been stuck in a rut lately. I'm hoping I can use this time to figure out what I am supposed to do next.
A very wise monkey once told me: "The past can hurt, but the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it"
I feel like the quote really speaks to me. I've been thinking about the past a lot recently. The past is over, can't be tweaked with. I've just got to learn from my mistakes and keep myself in the present. Girls camp will be good for me. It'll be different not having my phone or being able to play candy crush but I know I will come back with a greater understanding of what I need to do.

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Stop; don't look back

Two posts in one day? Lucky you! 
I was waiting in my car for my friend yesterday. I looked in the mirror and saw this. It reminded me that things are in the past for a reason. So I shouldn't keep looking back.


Why? Why am I acting like such a poor picked on victim? What do I have to complain about? A lot more people have seen more heartbreak in the past couple years than I could ever fathom. How could I be so shallow? The nicest lady at my work; I don't think she's evee said 1 unkind thing about anybody was cheated on in her first marriage. Would you even know? No. She let her trial make her better not bitter. One of the funniest girls I have ever met; lost more people in her life this year, then i could ever imagine. Been through trial after trial. Is she bitter? No, she keeps living her life in hope that one day things will get better. A girl I've never really talked to; she has seen so much saddness. Losing loved one after loved one. A sibling and a best friend. She keeps on smiling and changing people for the better.  A family member; she lost her mom and dad within a month. She still thrives and goes through life smiling. What do I have to complain about? Nothing. I'm so very grateful for all my father in heaven has blessed me with. I have been blessed with so much. I'm also extremely grateful for my knowledge of eternal families. I know I will be able to see all my loved ones again. I'm going to try from now on, to write down 1 thing I was blessed with each day. I think that will help me to see how truly blessed I really am.