Did you really think study hall was for homework?

As I sit here, in study hall, I have a lot of time to think. This is a class where it is totally up to you on what you get accomplished. There is no "lesson plan" or a course to get through. Just a time for you to do homework. It is a quiet-er class than normal. Everyone is working on their own homework and so it's not a class you need a friend in. This leaves me to think about my work and whatever else is bouncing through my brain.
I've been thinking a lot of people lately. Why do people do what they do? Why do they speak in such a derogatory manner? Why do they start rumors? Why do they give people reputations that they don't deserve?   
People are complicated; it's as simple as that. Everyone goes through things in a different way. Some people show how they feel differently. If someone feels bullied they might bully another to get revenge, or feel better about themselves.
It's really sad how our world is becoming more and more selfish. We don't care what others are going through if it has nothing to do with us.
I try to be mindful of other people. I know what it feels like to be picked on and torn down. I try to be friendly to everyone. I also try to accept people from all walks of life. If you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you.
Of course, I'm nowhere near perfect. I do mess up often. Sometimes I do judge based on appearance, or your reputation,  or where you come from. Sometimes it is just so easy to make a false accusation about someone so you don't have to get to know them. You know you won't like them, so why try? Maybe, you're meant to be in their life. Maybe you could learn somehting from them that you couldn't learn from anyone else.
I'm trying to be better about judging people. I want to have people think that I'm one of those girls who is friends with anyone and who is willing to talk to anyone if they need to talk to someone. 

Discovery. Of. The. Day.

Since our school is 50 below and I freeze to death everyday, I found out if you go into the bathroom and turn on the hand dryer, it makes a pretty good heater!
I just thought I'd help you out by making you aware of this super great trick!
Send me some warmth tomorrow as I trudge through school.

Enjoying The Most Important Show; Life

"I'm just a little bit caught in the middle, life is a maze and love is a riddle. I don't know where to go, can't do it alone I've tried, but I got to let it go... and just enjoy the show." (- the show; lanka)

Take what life throws at you with a smile. Life IS a maze, it wasn't made to be easy. It's supposed to challenge us and help us develope. We have to learn from our mistakes and grow every day. My life isn't easy, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.

{ 4th Day of School Blues }

How in the world is it only the 4th day of school?! We haven't even had a weekend yet. Yet, it feel like I've been in school for 2 weeks. If time keeps going by this slow I'm going to have a mental break down. I'm sure after a couple of weeks I'll get into my... for lack of a better word "grove" (ew, I sound like some creepy old man) then school will *hopefully* start flying by and it'll be Christmas! 
Until then, I'm stuck in study hall. Taking a "break" from doing my homework because this packet is massive and I'm sick of doing scientific notation. 
Maybe this, "let's try and challenge myself by doing hard classes", thing was not the best idea. I've only been to 2 A-days and 2 B-days and I already have done SO much homework and I've got a nice pile for the weekend. 
I'm sure this will be a learning experience and I will grow and become more disciplined then I was before. But, as of right now I'm a little overwhelmed.

Can't sleep post #1 for school year 13-14

The cycle begins. Because of the 4 hour nap I took because I was exhausted from waking up at 6.... I can't sleep. I know it's only 10:30 and I should give it at least another 3 hours before I complain, but I like going to bed early and it's nearing what I would consider late.
Of course, the only thing I could think of to do because I can't sleep is blog. It just kind of correlates. No sleep= Blog. Makes perfect sense. 
I did actually survive the first day of school. I made it to all of my classes on time ( not that I was actually worried about being on time ) and I really like all of them. I'm sure as the year goes on there will be classes that I absolutely dread, but for now I like all of my classes. Of course, school is school which isn't fun at all, but I'm trying to make the best of it. This year is already better than last year and it's only been 3 days! I have high hopes for the rest of the year. I'm going to try and make it as enjoyable as possible.  Tiger pride! Go OHS!

Ears to hear

I'm there for everyone. I always have been. If you need someone to listen to you, I'm there.
But if I need someone, there is no one for me.
I'm starting to get really really REALLY sick of it..

My little oasis

All of my *used to be* senior, friends are getting ready for missions, moving out, and going to college. I'm so glad I'm not in the stage of my life yet. That is way to stressful for my poor little soul. I love how I have my own little schedule and mu own little space. Moving out means a new space, new people, maybe a roomate? I like things to be perfect. It's my own little form of OCD.
I'm so weird about every thing having a place. Clutter gived me anxiety. I like the "home-y" style of peoples room's, but I honestly could not handle it in my own room because I wouldn't be able to sleep.
When I get stressed or anxious I clean. Yesterday, I cleaned: My room &my bathroom, the hallway, the main bathroom, The landing & stairs, and the Kitchen.
Sometimes, I just have to clean. It's another form of debriefing for me.
I like order and perfection. 

A little retail therapy never hurt nobody

There should probably be a limit to how many times in a week a person can go to target. This week I've been 4 times... and it's only thursday.
There is just something about target that is so relaxing to me. If I'm bored or stressed or need a break from everyone, I just head on over to Target. I usually end up coming home with a random assortment of products that I didn't need, but who cares! This week I have bought:
Beach babe sea salt spray
2 pairs of tennis shoes
1 pair of flats
1 pair of sandals
2 binders
6 folders
2 five subject notebooks
10 pens
10 pencils
3 packs of pencil lead
8 party hats
1 birthday girl button
1 twenty-five dollor I tunes gift card
AND
1 ferbreze car vent freshener.
And I bought ALL of this for under $90. I guess you could call me a savvy saver!

School starts in 5 days. I have been looking forward to it all summer. Now I have been hit with a case of the "before the first day of school jitters". I'm starting to get really nervous. Plus, I still have a page of my pre-calculus honors packet to do. Please, let me survive the first day of school.

When one door closes, a better one opens

It ALL makes sense now. Things didn't work out before, so this could! I'm so glad that I was patient with god and his timing. That I stuck out the hard times, and kept pushing forward. I would never had imagined this happening, but now that it did I wouldn't trade it for the world! Ahhh I'm so happy!