Hashtag stuck

hello. it's been a while... a really long while! sorrz! 

Lately I've been struggling with an idea I have. I really am  interested in handlettering, brush lettering, and the things of that sort. 

I've been into what I call "doodling" for as long as I can remember. I used to get in trouble in school for drawing little pictures all over my homework assignments. I never thought of it as a talent until recently. It has become a very popular skill amongst white girls worldwide. 

There was a stretch of time when I thought I'd go into graphic design (see previous post)  and do it for a living. I realized though that I didn't want what I did for fun, or when I was bored or stressed to become something that I HAD to do. Cause let's face it, sometimes I'm not in the mood, or my designs aren't flowing from my pen as I would hope they would. I abandoned the graphic design train REAl quick after that realization. 

So now I just do it when I'm feeling it. Which is basically daily lately, as I try to find my place in this ever changing world. 

I want people to see what I do, but I don't want to look like that Hashtag Typical White Girl who just hopped on the bandwagon. So instead of opening up an etsy shop**, like I really really want to, I'll just keep doing my thing and posting here. To my own little corner of the internet. 

If you, my loyal fans (gag)  would like to purchase or have something designed for your own personal enjoyment (and to boost my ego) please shoot me an email! riahgaines(at)gmail(dot)com

P.s. I'm a novice! I'm just looking to do what I enjoy and learn skills as I keep "doodling" 

** Also it really shouldn't matter that I make an etsy site, I'm just worried about being judged and I honestly shouldn't worry about that but I do.