When I grow up (I wanna be famous, I wanna be a star.... No? Alright.)

Ever since I was born, it has felt like people have  been asking, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" or "What are you going to do with your life?" or "What's next?" or "What are you doing after high school?" The variety of questions all similar that adults ask people younger than them to try to feel connected and then open up their own can on opinion and pour it all over your dreams. 

I've answered in various ways:

• A Cowgirl (I was in preschool-lay off)
• A Mom  (My number 1 choice) 
• A Teacher
• A Beautician 
• A Graphic Designer 
• A Dental Assistant (Currently pursuing)
• An Entrepreneur & own my own business (Pursing in my free time)

Lately, I've come to realize it doesn't matter what I do career wise, but more the kind of person I become, 

When I grow up I want to be:

• Kind. I never want people to feel hurt by me or the words I say or how I act. 
• Friendly & Outgoing. I want people to feel comfortable  around me and especially I want them to feel important when they are in my presence. 
• Someone who serves. I want to put others before myself and be willing to go out of my way to help people. I want to be able to see the needs of others and be there to lend a helping hand whenever possible. If it be convenient or not. I know that service brings you the biggest sense of accomplishment and happiness. I always feel happier when I am serving others. 
• I want to be mentally and emotionally strong. I want to be able to be strong for others as well as for myself. The world can be cruel sometimes and so can life and when life hits me to the ground I want to feel like I am able to overcome any and all obstacles. 
• Respected. I want to respect others and have the same respect I have given be returned to me. 
• A Leader. I want to be able to use my talent as a leader for good and as often as I can. 
• Organized. The more organized you are the more prepared you are for the curveballs of life. When you are organized you can fell relaxed and others are drawn to you more. 
• Happy. I want to feel so content in all areas of my life. I want to feel content in my family life, my spiritual life, my career, my home, my hobbies and my accomplishments. There is no better feeling than pure joy and contentment. I also want to have no regrets. All the trials turn into lessons and strength and I am ready- no matter the difficulty. 
• Confident. I want to exude confidence, but not in a cocky way. I want to be happy with myself. I want to be happy with the way I look and my flaws and my other qualities that make me, well me! I want to have high self esteem and self confidence. 
• Spiritual. I want to gather all the knowledge of this perfect gospel that I can in my time here on earth. I want to be knowledgeable on the scriptures, the commandments, and other sacred things this gospel has to offer. (If you are confused and not sure what I am talking about check out This! )
• Obedient. I want to be obedient to all the rules and laws of the land, the gospel and such.
• An Example. I want people to learn from my example and I want people to be like me when they "grow up". 

I am sure there are millions of more things I would like to be when I grow up. These are just a few of the ones closest to my heart. It doesn't matter what I become- it matters more who I become. 

Old Yeller (lol pun central)

Okay. So. I never thought I was going to be a yeller, but as it turns out... I am a yeller! Who would of thought! When I was younger ( and still to this day) I hate(d) when people (would) yell. It seriously gives me anxiety and it really hurts my ears because I have tiny baby sensitive ears.

Anyway, I didn't think I would turn out to be someone who causes a ruckus. Although, in the last couple of years, I've noticed that when things don't go my way (I'm kind of a control freak and I hate when things don't go exactly how I plan... even though that's life) or something annoys me I just freak out all dramatic & teenager like and complain loudly about how everything sucks and blah blah blah you know the drill. I'm basically the real life version of any teenage girl  movie character. Yuck!

As I've realized.. I've become sort of a hypocrite. I hate hate hate hate hate HATE when other people yell (or even talk loudly for that matter) yet, I find myself doing it constantly. Especially when I am upset in any sort of way.

Why is it that we always promise ourselves that we'll never do a certain thing, and then when we find ourselves doing that thing we are mortified?  Why do we set ourselves up for that kind of failure?  It is human nature to say one thing and do another but why? Because if you're around that behavior (i.e. Yelling) you usually tend to adopt it into your own daily life. Which is what has caused me to incorporate yelling and sometimes being a jerk to people who don't deserve it, into my life. I really never wanted to turn into this person.

So basically I wrote this whole thing to tell you ( yes you.) that I am horribly ashamed of myself for turning into a yeller which I swore on my life that I never would be.

Faafing. It's not for the weak.

I really had this fantastic topic to blog about... But every time I attempted (okay, only twice) it came out wrong. Soooooo I guess I'll scratch that and maybe I'll try again later! 

Anyway if you've seen my Twitter that I share with my sister (@gsquaredsisters) or my snapchat story, you know that tonight we "faaffed".

Basically it's this thing that my dad came up with and he thinks it is genius. Faaf stands for fitness as a family. He is obsessed with just saying the word faaf. He also made faaf into a verb and always says "We're going faaffing" or "Just faaffed". 

At first I thought it was pretty dumb, but the more you say it the funnier it gets! Allyson and I make it our goal to make fun of faafing as much as humanly possible. That's what we did the entire whole time on our walk around the block. 

Anyways, Thanks dad, for creating such an entertaining thing to my life!