"We've only been camping 2 minutes and I've already seen 3 earwigs" -Allyson

(she is terrified of earwigs)
Basically last Monday I moved out. It may have only been to the tent in my backyard, but it still counts right??
I decided since it is summer and I graduated highschool I wanted to move out... but I am really poor and My mom told me if I live at home she'll pay for me to go to school sooooo really living at home is the best choice.
But, as of lately my family has been on my nerves and I needed some space so I marched out to the garage drug the tent out of the clutter and called Tanner to set it up for me.
Tent living has seriously been the best idea Allyson and I (Okay, so I didn't "move out" by myself Allyson has been here the whole time with me) have ever had. 

Reasons to support last bold statement:

• Not only have I been able to sleep better, but I've been able to wake up well rested and with more energy. 
• It's been nice to be outside more and it has been 50x more relaxing.
• Cots are surprisingly comf.
• I've gotten the space that I desperately needed so I didn't murder my whole entire family in psychotic break/mass murder and go to prison for the rest of my life. 
• I get to do whatever I want in my new house.
• My new house is always clean and tidy and perfect.
• Sister bonding time
• Tons of laughs with my sister and we stay up til the wee hours of the morning chatting about life which is the best. (basically this and the last bullet are the same-who cares, my blog I do what I want).
• I didn't really move out so I don't have bills to pay or have to have freaky roommates.
• My mom can still cook dinner for me.
• I still don't have to fully be an adult with adult problems and 5 million bills to pay- but I do have more freedom. 
• Practice for when I really do live away from home, I will be more used to sleeping in a house alone.

Pretty much this has been such a great experience (thus far) that I plan to just live in the tent in my backyard for the duration of the summer. So if you need me, that's where I will be. 

Hobbies... Jobbies... Lobbies...

What in the world even is a hobby? What is a normal hobby? Why is everyone obsessed with finding a hobby? To me, I have a lot of baby hobbies that I bounce between.
I like to blog. I like to doodle and make little designs. I like to organize. I like being outside. I have just started to like going on short baby runs. I like to read. I like to go on bike rides. I like to watercolor (even though I'm not the greatest). I like to shop. I like to workout when I am stressed.
I like a lot of things. I don't just have one prominent hobby. That's why I think I have such a hard time telling people my hobby and what I do for fun. I do tons of different things in all different situations.
That's why I am trying to break away from the shame I sometimes  feel I tell someone I don't really have a hobby. I am me, and if that's not good enough for people, they don't have to talk to me!
So from now on, I am proud to have many baby hobbies and I am not going to let anyone make me feel bad for not settling down on one major hobby.

Mind games

There is something wrong with me. 

Not anything any amount of medicine or a doctor can fix. 

It's a mind thing,

I get caught up on thoughts. 

They swarm around my head. 

They pound against the walls of my skull. 

Leaving my head pounding and bruised inside. 

When this happens I can't shut it off, 

I can't stop my thoughts from tormenting me. 

Almost simultaneously as I receive a beating from my thoughts, 

My body goes into a panic. 

My heart rate spikes,

As my heart shoves against my chest. 

My body shakes. 

It feels like there is a 50 pound Boulder on my chest,

I can't breathe. 

I can't think clearly.

My body is filled to the brim with thoughts and emotions. 

It scares me more than anything. 

And then,

When what feels like hours have passed, it's all over. 

It can stop as quickly as it starts.

That's the real scary thing-

I never know when it's going to hit. 

Dreams are so trippy

I feel like lately especially (with my stress levels being through the roof) my dreams have become exponentially weirder. They are becoming so much more vivid than they were before which makes me tripped out because I can no longer distinguish between dream life and real life. This is a problem because now if something annoys me in my dream, or I get mad, or any distinct emotion, it carries over int real life. The following day all I can think about is how annoyed I am at that person or how annoying the situation was. It is really interfering with my actual life.

Just thought you wanted to know

Help me? Please!

Oooooohhhhkay. I'm not even sure if I still have followers?? Is there anybody out there? Well we'll just have to give it a shot! 

Soooo for my senior project for my college writing class was to create a business! 

I chose to create a home organizing business! I'm super excited and finally to the point where I am look for customers! If you (or anyone you know) need some help organizing your house please check out my website

www.straightenupco.weebly.com 

It has all my pricing and my contact info! Since my business is just taking off I am willing to negotiate pricing! If you don't see what you want done on the list, feel free to still contact me! I'm willing to attack any project you can throw at me! 

Nostalgia: in every sense of the word

Sometimes I get so caught up in life, that I forget what it was like before, before I high school, before I could drive, before I had a boyfriend. I forget endless nights hanging with your best friend(s) usually doing nothing and laughing uncontrollably. I got to relive that tonight and it was wonderful.
An old friend (am I allowed to use that term? I'm barely 18... You know I can actually do whatever I want since this is my blog) came over tonight and we played catchphrase for 2 hours straight and just laughed and laughed. That was the most laughing I have done in a while & I can (and I do) literally laugh at anything in the whole world so that's saying something! We talked about things ranging from the production of almond milk to retirement home abuse and every other thing you could ever imagine in between. It was a good night and I am sad that this chapter of my life is soon coming to a close.
Am I ready for this all to be over? Am I ready to really grow up? I'm not really sure. All I know is that I love where I am right now, and I am going to relish every moment.

Basically I am just thankful❤️

I literally will never ever get tired of him, or this!! He is the sweetest boy!!

We're also basically the most hilarious people together. I just need to wear a go-pro around so you can experience us, the way we get to!