16 goin' on 17

I'll be 17 in a mere 17 days. I couldn't be more excited! November is such a good month to have a birthday! There is thanksgiving, black Friday, thanksgiving break, the whole sha-bang! It's like the whole month is celebrating you. It's just far enough away from Christmas that you still get a lot of presents on your birthday AND christmas. It's really just perfect. Plus we're in that cozy fall season where everyone wants to cuddle up in blankets and watch movies, which are my most favorite hobbies! The holiday season is upon us and everyone is cheery and it just feels great to be alive! Happy Birth Month To Me!  

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Guess who remembered she has a blog! Oh yes, me!
Recently, I've been blogging about how annoying people are and then grinding them down to dirt. I am truly sorry for that and I will refrain from those kinds of posts. A while ago I saw a post a friend wrote about me and it really made me upset to see what she had to say. I know she was just upset and that was her way to vent her frustrations and she didn't intend for me to happen upon it, but it still made me feel like dirt. I wouldn't want anyone to feel the way I felt.
Anyways, I'm SO excited that it's finally November! My birthday is T-minus 23 days away and I could not be more excited! 17! Wow time flies fast, I remeber (what feels like yesterday) when I was in Harmons telling the cashier that I was 7 and a half. Almost 10 years have passed by since then. I've grown and learned a lot. I'm grateful for everything that I've been through that has helped me become who I am today. Even the really hard times when all I wanted was to hibernate until everything was better.
I may or may have not been secretly wishing that my birthday is the best birthday yet. I'm seriously so excited to spend it with my friends! I don't even care what I recieve as long as I get to be with my favorite people in the whole world! 23 days can not come soon enough.

I can not handle

I must just be the bih friend.
And I'm kinda over it.
I HATE feeling like this.
I'm sick of being responsible and a good friend and then people being bratty about my boyfriend.
I'm just bugged.
Ugh.

Jam Packed Sunday

Technology must hate me. I wrote a super long post and I got a text in the middle. When I opened the text my WHOLE post deleted. I proceeded to cry and then explode.
Now I'm going to try and re-do my post.

I had the amazing opportunity to attend 3 sacrament meetings today. 2 mission farewells and a primary program. The highlights of the meetings go as follows:

- everyone can have empathy. It is easier to empathize with someone if you have gone through something similar to what they have gone through.
- people who have had the hardest trials smile the brightest. Everyone has their trials, but those who have been at their ends wit have the brightest countenance. A smile to them is not just a smile, it is an expression of the joy they are able to feel. When they smile their lips don't just curl up. Their whole face shines with happiness. Those kinds of people make me happy. I'll let you in on a little secret, they also make the best friends.
- Missinary work is not about you (the missionary)  it is about helping others come into our loving gosple. It is about god, not you.
- Primary children are the closest beings to heaven. They exude happiness. How can you not be happy when the little primary children are screaming the primary songs.
- Our gosple is simple, yet complex. You can have all of the answers, yet none of the answers at the same time. This is wondeful! It let's you be the one to decide what is right. It makes you think and helps you grow as a person.
- About to be missionaries give the best hugs
- Families are forever
And last but certainly not least
- The church is true. (It's really true folks, so believe it.)
I am so blessed to have friends that encourage me to be my best self and lift me higher. I'm so grateful that they set the example for me in being strong members of the church. Without their examples, I do not know where I would be.
I'm so grateful for the soon to be missionaries who spoke today and strengthened my testimony. I lobe this church. I'm so blessed to have been born into it.

Change is in the air

"Fall is falling, it hasn't fell yet. But it's falling." -a quote from a girl who's blog I read.
This quote sums up how it feels outaide today.
The seansons are changing,  you can feel it in the air and you can smell it. I'm so excited for what this fall will bring.
Fall is falling, it hasn't fell yet. But it's falling. 

Life after High School.

I'm only a junior.. but that doesn't mean I can't look into the future. What am I going to do with the  rest of my life?
Where am I going to go to college?  What about my friends? Do I want to move out? Or live at home? What about a room mate? What about how bossy I am, how can I handle a new situation? This whole High School ending really freaks me out. In May 2015, I will graduate. I will begin my new life.  This is so out of my confort zone.
Ever since I was little I dreamed about going to Cascade, Canyon View,  and last but not least, big ole' Orem High. All my babysitters used to tell me how cool and fun high school was, and it definitely is. I can't believe I've already concured 1 (well I guess 2 if you count freshman year) year of highschool. I still have the rest of this year and next year, but it is all going by so fast. I have so many questions, but I don't like a lot of the answers.
I'm almost 17, I still have my whole life before me. How am I going to spend it? Hiw will I make it count? 

Why ya gotta be so mean?

I people watch sometimes. This one specific time, was at the football game on Friday night. This girl who is in my seminary class, (who gets up a lot and talks about how she is having a hard time with the people she thought were her friends) was sitting with these girls who are her "friends". I noticed one of the girls said, "Hey! Let's take a picture!" Then when the girl leaned in to be in the picture, that same girl said, "Oh. I just meant us." Then snapped the picture of her and another girl. The girl from my seminary class was obviously embarrassed. Her face got a little pink and tears filled her eyes.
It really makes me sad how people can ne so rude. I know I'm not perfect and I know that I have been in fault of some of these same actions before, but it breals my heart. This girl, is one of the sweetest girls I know. She also has one of the strongest testimonies. These other girls disregard her, as if she is trash. I'm sure this girl has started to believe she must be trash. She is trying so hard to be a good friend to them and they just don't care.
High school is a place where this situation happens often. It's really sad and It breaks my heart.